Tuesday, August 25, 2009
But I won't lie. I felt pretty good about myself when I was the one walking next to him on the way to his car. I felt amazing when he said that he wanted to walk back with me. I felt that "uh-oh" feeling when he said that he wants to hang out at the football game on Friday. Then when you just walked away with a simple "goodbye" and not even a wave of a hand or even a smile, I knew that maybe it was all too good to be true. I was hoping for something a little more special. Just a little something that made me think about why he had asked me to stay after school to talk. But instead I just got some denial. I was in so much denial about being completely over him...well that's self-explanitory. And while I stood there waiting for my ride to get me, I thought about what it all meant:
"I guarantee that the eyes are blind to what the heart can see."
Now was this boy seeing the same thing that I do when I look in the mirror? Or is he seeing what he chooses to or not to see?
I'm slowly starting to get in the hang of things here at school. Getting in the hang of homework and the feeling of stress. I just know that it's going to get 23o8493 times worse once classes start picking up, rehearsals start getting more intense, and theatre week! But it's going to be one hell of a season, and I just can't wait! But I must say, this week is going by hella slow.
Hurray for hot tea and pilates to make it all better! xoxo
"It is very simple: one sees well only with the heart. The essential is invisible to the eyes."--The Little Prince