why can't i be optimistic?
i tried to find the logic logically.
Stress is getting to me more now than ever.
I realized tonight that I'm my biggest enemy. You're your biggest enemy. No one is harder on you than yourself. I am that perfectionist. I get so upset with myself when I don't satisfy my standards or acheive above them. I feel like I can't do anything. I always talk about the invincibility and confidence I feel when I'm dancing. But take tonight for example, I had an awful ballet class. I couldn't turn. My hips were gripping. And my damn arches are still cramping up! What am I supposed to do now? When I don't even feel great when I dance?
But I am also that optimist. And I say that icky days should be rare in your life.
PS. I know that this loneliness is temporary, but when will it finally end and someone new will come around?